THE DIVINE AMNESIA: RAMA’S JOURNEY TO THE SELF

We often envision Avataras—divine incarnations appearing for the guidance of humanity—as arriving on Earth in a perpetual state of heightened spiritual clarity. Yet, this view underestimates the sheer density of the earthly experience. More often than not, the Avatara must navigate the same “divine amnesia” as the rest of humanity, requiring spiritual direction and intense effort to overcome Maya, the delusory impact of this physical dimension.

The Yoga Vasishta, a sublime instructional manual on the nature of reality, captures this process through the story of Rama and the instruction he received from the Sage Vasishta. While the original text is massive—comprising roughly 32,000 verses—it was condensed over centuries into the Yoga Vasishta Sara (The Essence of the Yoga Vasishta). This distilled version of approximately 230 verses became widely popular in the 20th century, largely due to the high recommendation of Ramana Maharshi.

The Backdrop of Disillusionment

The narrative begins with a sixteen-year-old Rama returning from a pilgrimage across India. Rather than being inspired, he falls into a state of profound melancholy and “divine dissatisfaction.” He begins to perceive the world as fleeting, painful, and ultimately unreal. Rama loses interest in his royal duties, his family, and his own physical well-being.

This is not a mere bout of teenage angst; it is a full-blown existential realization of the transience of life. His father, King Dasharatha, becomes deeply concerned and seeks the counsel of the family preceptor, Sage Vasishta. In the royal court, before an assembly of sages and kings, Vasishta recognizes that Rama is not depressed in the clinical sense, but is “ripe” for the highest spiritual truth. He delivers a series of discourses intended to lead Rama from world-weariness to Sahaja Samadhi (natural enlightenment), emphasizing that the world is a projection of the mind and liberation is the realization of our true nature.

The World as a Dream of the Mind

A cornerstone of this teaching is the assertion that the world is a dream and the Self—our true nature—is the only reality. The text states:

“That which is not at the beginning and the end, is non-existent also in the middle. The world is like a dream; it appears to be real only while one is in it.”

The world-process is not separate from the Self, just as a bracelet is not different from the gold of which it is made, or a wave is not separate from the ocean. The world is a construct of the mind; when the mind is at rest, the world-illusion vanishes.

The Jivanmukta and the Fried Seed

For the Jivanmukta—one who is liberated while still living—the mind is free from the tether of desire. The text describes such a state beautifully:

“He who is inwardly free from all desires, though he may appear to be engaged in worldly actions, is called a Jivanmukta. The mind of a wise man is like a fried seed; it can no longer sprout into the world of suffering.”

Just as a fried seed retains the appearance of a seed but has lost the capacity to take root and grow, the sage’s mind operates in the world without planting the seeds of future karma or suffering.

The Mystery of Non-Doership

One of the most challenging concepts in the Yoga Vasishta is non-doership. Most of us identify so strongly with the body and ego that we cannot imagine action without an “actor.” However, Advaita Vedanta teaches that our true identity—pure consciousness—is unborn, undying, and never performs action.

“He who has no idea of ‘I’ in his body, and whose mind is not attached to anything, is not bound even though he may perform actions. The firm conviction that ‘I am not the doer’ is the means to liberation.”

By surrendering the sense of the “acting self,” the sage perceives the universe or the Divine performing all actions through the instrument of the body. This Vedantic concept of non-doership mirrors the Buddhist concept of Anatta (no-self). While the language differs, both traditions point toward the same horizon: the dismantling of the egoic center to reveal a more profound, universal reality.

The Yoga Vasishta reminds us that even for a being as spiritually luminous as Rama, the thickness of Maya can obscure the light of the Self. His journey from despair to enlightenment suggests that the effort required to overcome earthly delusion is not a flaw in the divine design, but a necessary part of the human—and divine—drama.

By witnessing Rama’s transition from a disillusioned youth to a liberated sage, we find a roadmap for our own lives. We learn that our dissatisfaction with the fleeting nature of the world is not a sign of failure, but the first stirrings of awakening. Ultimately, the text teaches us that we do not need to escape the world to find peace; we only need to recognize that the world is a play of the mind, and that we are the silent, eternal Witness behind the screen.

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THE TEN OX-HERDING PICTURES: A MAP OF THE AWAKENING MIND

In the Zen tradition, the Ten Ox-Herding Pictures serve as a profound visual and poetic allegory for the evolution of consciousness. This series of images and accompanying verses illustrates the practitioner’s journey from the initial stirrings of spiritual longing, through the rigors of disciplined practice, to the ultimate realization of enlightenment—and, crucially, the subsequent return to the ordinary world.

The Architect of the Path: Kuo-an Shih-yuan

The definitive version of this map was created by Kuo-an Shih-yuan, a 12th-century Chinese Zen master of the Rinzai (Linji) school. Kuo-an was a true polymath—a philosopher, poet, and artist—whose lineage emphasized Kensho (direct insight into one’s true nature) and the use of Koans to shatter the dualistic, conceptual mind.

Before Kuo-an, earlier Taoist iterations of the story often consisted of only five or eight pictures, typically concluding with an empty circle to symbolize “Nirvana” or absolute emptiness. Kuo-an, however, found this ending spiritually “incomplete” and potentially misleading. He feared students might mistake the void for the final destination, leading to “Zen sickness”—a state of sterile detachment or withdrawal from life. To correct this, he added two final stages, emphasizing that true enlightenment is not an escape from reality, but a radical immersion in it. In Kuo-an’s view, the “Buddha-mind” is most authentically lived in the mundane: in the garden, at the writing desk, or in service to one’s neighbor.

The Symbolism and Pedagogy

The drawings function as a psychological mirror. The herder represents the seeker (the practitioner), while the ox symbolizes both ordinary mind and our True Nature.

For centuries, teachers have used these images to help students navigate the “circular” nature of practice. A student might experience the profound stillness of Stage 3 (Perceiving the Bull), only to be jolted by the resurgence of old habits and egoic desires in Stage 4 (Catching the Bull). By referencing this map, a teacher normalizes these frustrations, reminding the student that “seeing” the truth is only the beginning; the wild mind still requires patient, disciplined taming.

Beyond mere illustration, the pictures are often used as objects of meditation. A teacher might instruct a student to sit with the eighth image—the Enso, or empty circle—contemplating the absence of both the “seeker” and the “sought.” The teacher might pose a challenge: “Where does the ox go when the circle is empty?” Such inquiries force the practitioner to move beyond intellectual theory and into a direct, non-dual experience of reality.

The Ten Stages of the Journey
  1. Searching for the Bull: The herder is lost in the wilderness of the world, searching for a nameless “something.” Distracted and confused, he feels the weight of separation and a deep, uncertain longing.
  2. Seeing the Footprints: Through study or meditation, the herder finds traces of the ox. He begins to understand that there is a path to follow, even if the destination remains obscured.
  3. Perceiving the Bull: The first glimpse of the ox’s tail or hindquarters. This is the initial “Aha!” moment—the visceral realization that the reality being sought is not external, but intrinsic to the seeker.
  4. Catching the Bull: The herder finally grabs the ox with a rope. However, the ox (mind) is wild and stubborn; it wants to run back into the fields of delusion. This represents the hard work of disciplined practice.
  5. Taming the Bull: Discipline gives way to partnership. The herder gains control, patiently guiding the ox along the path. The struggle begins to soften into a steady, focused practice.
  6. Riding the Bull Home: The struggle ends. The herder sits atop the ox, playing a flute in effortless joy. The practice has become natural and spontaneous.
  7. The Bull Forgotten: Reaching home, the ox—the symbol of the search—is no longer necessary. The herder sits alone under the moon, settled in his inner peace.
  8. Both Bull and Self Forgotten: The Enso. The “I” who seeks and the “Truth” being sought both vanish. There is only Sunyata (Emptiness)—a state of pure presence beyond all dualities.
  9. Reaching the Source: The seeker observes the world as it is—flowers blooming, water flowing—without needing to project any meaning onto it. It is the realization that things are perfect exactly as they are.
  10. In the World with Helping Hands: The herder returns to the marketplace as an ordinary, perhaps even disheveled, man. He does not retreat into a cave; he enters the bustle of life fully, his mere presence bringing clarity and light to others.

For those who wish to study these stages further, the following link provides the classic woodblock prints alongside the essential translations of the original poems and introductory words by Philip Kapleau:

The Ten Ox-Herding Pictures – Terebess Asia Online

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THE MORNING INVOCATION: AWAKENING TO THE WHOLE

The morning offers a sacred window—a time when the mind is fresh, vibrant, and not yet clouded by the dense activities and distractions of the day. In these quiet hours after rising, the most potent action we can take is to offer a prayer for the welfare of all beings.

The purpose of this practice is threefold: it provides immeasurable subtle assistance to the world, it dissolves the delusion of our own finitude, and it serves as a persistent reminder to act as a conscious instrument of the Divine.

From Self-Interest to Universal Service

Before we awaken to our spiritual nature, the gravity of our lives tends to pull us toward self-interest. While it is necessary to fulfill the practical needs of ourselves and our families, we must eventually acknowledge that we are an interconnected part of a much larger Whole.

As we shift our focus toward this “Big Picture,” our spiritual awareness naturally ascends. We move from the conceptual to the experiential realization of what the poet Rumi so elegantly stated:

“You are not a drop in the ocean. You are the entire ocean, in a drop.”

When we live from this realization, our daily actions are no longer merely personal chores; they become, as Alan Watts suggested, “an expression of the whole realm of nature, a unique action of the total universe.” In this expansive state, our mental horizons widen, creating a clearing for our inherent divinity to express itself. Through this process, the ego and its limiting delusions are eclipsed.

Large mind, small ego. Small mind, big ego.

Traditions of Universal Goodwill

This practice of expanding the heart is a cornerstone of the world’s wisdom traditions. In Buddhism, this is cultivated through Metta, a Pali term for “loving-kindness.” A practitioner might recite:

“May all beings everywhere be happy and safe, healthy and strong, and live with ease and well-being.”

Similarly, the Hindu tradition offers the ancient Shanti Mantra, a profound invocation for the welfare of all existence:

सर्वे भवन्तु सुखिनः सर्वे सन्तु निरामयाः । सर्वे भद्राणि पश्यन्तु मा कश्चिद्दुःखभाग्भवेत् ।

Sarve Bhavantu Sukhinaḥ Sarve Santu Nirāmayāḥ Sarve Bhadrāṇi Paśyantu Mā Kaścid Dukhabhāg Bhavet Om Śāntiḥ, Śāntiḥ, Śāntiḥ

“May everyone, everywhere be happy. Let each and every heart be filled with love, peace, and joy. May all miseries be destroyed, and may every soul thirst to reach the Divine.”

By beginning each day with a prayer for the “all,” we align our individual frequency with the universal pulse. We cease to be isolated islands and instead become conduits for a grace that knows no boundaries. This simple morning shift—moving from “What do I need?” to “May all be well”—does more than just change our mood; it fundamentally alters our reality. As the ego thins, the light of the Whole shines through, proving that when we seek the welfare of others, we inevitably find the highest version of ourselves.

Peace

THE ILLUSION OF THE TICKING BOX: FINDING GRACE IN DIVINE TIMING

In our modern world, where atomic clocks and synchronized smartphones dictate our every move, time is often perceived as an overwhelming, binding force. It drives our productivity, fuels our anxiety, and acts as a relentless master over almost every aspect of our lives. However, to find true peace, we must step back and view time through a different lens—one that recognizes linear sequence as a mere filter for a much larger reality.

In Autobiography of a Yogi, Paramahansa Yogananda describes a formative lesson regarding this perceived “crush” of time. While rushing from Calcutta to Serampore to visit his guru, Swami Sri Yukteswar, Yogananda found himself trapped in a comedy of errors. Between various delays and a late-running carriage, he became consumed by the mathematical impossibility of catching his train. Yet, upon his frantic arrival at the station, he discovered that the train itself had been unexplainably delayed, waiting just long enough for him to board.

When he finally reached the hermitage, Sri Yukteswar met him not with a lecture on punctuality, but with a knowing smile:

“Why are you so excited? Does not the Lord point out that He is the Arrival as well as the Departure?”

I have experienced this phenomenon many times, and I can personally attest to a profound blessing that only occurred because I was “late.”

Years ago, while living in Los Angeles and working a demanding full-time schedule, I planned a trip to Yreka, California, to spend a weekend with my guru, Dhyanyogi Madhusudandas. Because he would only spend four years in the United States before returning to India, every moment in his presence was precious.

On the day of my departure, the infamous Friday afternoon traffic in LA became an impenetrable wall, and I missed my flight to San Francisco. More determined than ever, I rented a car at the airport and drove through the night, arriving in Yreka just as the sun began to crest the horizon.

Guruji was in the habit of receiving massages from his disciples—a service that invariably resulted in immense blessings for the practitioner. Because of my “late” arrival, I was granted this specific honor that morning. As a master of Kundalini Maha Yoga and shaktipat, Guruji was known for being adept at transmitting spiritual energy (shakti). By the time I walked out of that session, I felt myself glowing like a light bulb. Moreover, the fatigue of a sleepless night was utterly gone, replaced by a radiant peace. Had I made my flight and arrived on time, I would have missed this most memorable transmission of grace.

The lesson is clear: everything that is meant to happen will happen in its own Divine timing. It is our ego that insists on specific outcomes and rigid schedules, but the Universe operates on a more comprehensive cosmic clock.

This truth is further illuminated by those who have stepped momentarily outside of the physical body. In near-death experiences (NDEs), subjects invariably report that linear time is a construct that does not exist “on the other side.”

In her book Dying to Be Me, Anita Moorjani describes how her consciousness expanded during her NDE. From that vantage point, she could perceive her past, present, and potential futures simultaneously. She likened the experience to being in a dark room where the lights are suddenly switched on, revealing that everything we perceive as “before” or “after” is actually happening in a singular, eternal “Now.” She writes:

“Time didn’t seem to exist as it does here… It was as though the tapestry of all time has already been woven.”

Similarly, Peter Panagore, who experienced an NDE caused by hypothermia, spoke of an “Infinite Presence.” For him, the most difficult part of returning to life was the “crushing weight” of linear time—the sensation of being poured back into a “small, ticking box.”

When we feel the weight of that ticking box, we must learn to pause and breathe. We can choose to step back and remember that even when we don’t understand the “why” behind a delay, a higher power is at work. Our only true job is to perform every action calmly, with grace and presence. As the Buddhist tradition reminds us, all things in this material world are impermanent; our suffering arises only when we cling to a specific outcome or a specific second on the clock.

As Marcus Aurelius observed nearly two thousand years ago in his Meditations:

“Time is a sort of river of passing events, and strong is its current; no sooner is a thing brought to sight than it is swept by and another takes its place, and this too will be swept away.”

When we stop fighting the current and trust the flow of the river, we realize that when we act mindfully we can never truly be late; we are simply being moved by a deeper wisdom that knows exactly when we need to arrive.

Trust

AWAKENING THE INVINCIBLE SELF

When we operate within the ordinary levels of consciousness—perceiving ourselves merely as finite, physical beings—we cannot escape a persistent sense of vulnerability. In this state, we feel at the mercy of circumstance: a job may be lost, a marriage may dissolve, or health may falter. As the years pass, this sense of fragility often intensifies; we become more acutely aware of potential risks, and the “infirmities” of age can feel like a gathering storm.

However, we must remind ourselves that this anxiety is the natural byproduct of the standpoint of separation. When we see ourselves as isolated fragments, self-doubt and weakness become like heavy clouds that obscure our vision. We lose sight of the “Inner Sun”—the divine self—which continues to shine with undiminished brilliance behind the temporary weather of our lives.

While our physical bodies are undeniably vulnerable and our emotions can feel fragile, our essential nature is fundamentally immune to harm. Whatever befalls us in the world of form is purely experiential; it is a passing shadow that leaves the core of our identity untouched.

This is the profound realization Krishna offers Arjuna on the cusp of a great battle. To quell Arjuna’s paralyzing distress, Krishna reveals the nature of the Self (Atman):

“The soul is not born, nor does it die; nor having once existed, does it ever cease to be. The soul itself is unborn, eternal, immortal, and ageless. It is not destroyed when the body is destroyed… Weapons cannot cut it, nor can fire burn it. Water cannot wet it, nor can the wind dry it. It is eternal, all-pervading, immutable, and primordial. It is imperceptible, inconceivable, and unchangeable. Knowing this, lamentation is not worthy of you.” (Chapter 2, verses 20, 23-25)

Krishna calls on Arjuna to stand and face the battle—an enduring analogy for the challenges of life itself. He delivers a firm, compassionate rebuke to the ego’s hesitation:

Yield not to such faint-heartedness, O son of Pritha! It does not become thee. Cast off this wretched weakness of heart and arise, O scorcher of enemies!” (Chapter 2, Verse 3)

The Necessity of Fearlessness

This spiritual standing-up is echoed by Swami Vivekananda, who reminds us that fearlessness is the prerequisite for true freedom:

The whole secret of existence is to have no fear. Never fear what will become of you; depend on no one. Only the moment you reject all help are you freed.”

With this understanding as our foundation, we can navigate our lives with unwavering confidence. When we realize that our core is indestructible, we no longer allow the fear of potential outcomes to deter us from pursuing our heart’s true direction. We move through the world not as fragile beings seeking protection, but as the eternal Self experiencing its own play.

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